The Hardest Thing About Pain
Some days I think it was easier when I was in pain every day.
Bone grinding pain every day sucks no question. But, it's harder for me constantly shifting from pain to no pain and back to pain again.
Take today for instance. (PLEASE take it!)
My pain went away yesterday about 11 in the morning. And, I had a good afternoon. Even got some small changes made to my website.
Then I woke up this morning feeling like I'd been run over by a semi. Achy all over and tired as sin.
And, it's that shifting from no pain to pain that I find immensely discouraging; particularly since these days it seems to be happening every other day. I don't know if the pain feels worse because I'd gotten my hopes up a teeny tiny bit or because it really is worse.
Then of course my rational scientific brain. or at least the part of my brain that still is, kicks in and tries to figure out THE REASON. Why pain today and not yesterday? What did I do wrong? What didn't I do that I 'should' have?
It's probably the damn weather: it's Chinooking again. Massive pressure shifts and a 20 degree F temperature shift from yesterday. And, if it IS that what the heck can I do about it? Move? Hardly. So, it's ride it out — AGAIN!
